The Bride Who Almost Died…
I was in Ketoacidosis and in danger of a diabetic coma. Thankfully, the nurses and doctors worked fast and saved my life. A year later, I found out my husband at the time was a cumpulsive gambler and addicted to painkillers. I almost lost everything! Needless to say, we divorced the following year. A few years after that, I was diagnosed with Graves’ Disease (thyroid). I was overproducing hormones 200% more than a normal thyroid. I was at risk of having a heart attack at the age of 30! That was crazy and incredibly scary! I had to have radiation to kill my thyroid and now I will be on insulin and synthroid for the rest of my life, unless they find a cure.
My step-nephew Danny was killed in the Chardon High School shooting which is such a tragedy for my family. I watched my sweet mother in law die from cancer. When my nephew was 16 days old, his father broke both of the babies legs. It was the youngest case of child abuse Rainbow Babies & Children’s Hospital has ever seen.
My world was shattered. My heart fell out of my chest. I was an empty soul. Broken. You have to understand, I don’t have children, so my nieces and nephews are like my kids. When Nick passed, it was unbearable. I fell into such a dark depression. I could barely get out of bed. I wasn’t taking care of myself. My diabetes was horrible. I was eating shitty food and gained a bunch of weight. I didn’t care about anything… especially myself. I hid the hurt from everyone. I needed to be tough, put on a front, and not let anyone see how weak I was.
I became so lost I was desperate for help! I started a program with Danette May that was about clean eating, mindset, meditation and movement. I have adopted this lifestyle as my everyday rituals and almost 3 years later I have my life back! You see, my mess had become my message.
So in a nutshell over the last 3 years I have learned vulnerability is not weakness; it is courage and strength! Had I not been getting married, I wouldn’t be here today. I would’ve died in my sleep. That’s crazy to even think! I have learned forgiveness and self love. If you don’t love yourself, how can you expect anyone else to love you. My diabetes is under control. I control my diabetes, it does not control me. Which brings me to my purpose: